Battle Season

By Crossmap

Friend, are you in a battle in this season of your life?

Perhaps you are walking through something that is very difficult and totally outside of your control.

Perhaps you feel fear and discouragement pressing in on you and you just feel totally overwhelmed.

Maybe it feels like you have been fighting one thing or another for as long as you can remember. Sometimes it takes everything you have just to barely hang on.

I’ve been in that place. I’ve been in the place where I felt the tension of it all through my entire body and actually ended up in the ER due to heart issues from the physical effects of trying to fight my battles in my own strength.

Have you spent nights awake with your mind racing, totally unable to sleep and stressing about how bad you were going to feel the next day?

Have you wracked your brain trying to think through every angle of a difficult decision?

I’ve been there. I’ve been in a place where all of the worries and cares of this life completely robbed me of all joy and peace.

A Spiritual Attack

If this is you my friend, then you are under spiritual attack and need to recognize it for what it is. Only God can save us during these attacks. He is our source for every need! Our trials will illuminate areas of your life that God wants you to surrender to Him.


In this season, God opened my eyes and revealed my lack of trust in Him; I was trusting myself more than Him.

How silly of me right? We all know that God is more powerful than us and far more capable than we are to handle every situation. We know this in our head but somewhere deep within us, perhaps hidden from ourselves even, is a lie we have believed that we can trust ourselves more than God.

That lie can make us feel that others are more important than we are and, therefore, more worthy of God’s time and attention. Withholding our trust from the Lord might sound like this for you: “I should handle everything I can in my own strength and only come to God about what I can’t handle.”

Some of us don’t know when to “waive our white flag” and will worry and work ourselves into the grave.

Reaching the End of Myself

These burdens were never ours to carry to begin with. For me, it took hitting a wall and reaching the end of any knowledge or life experience I had to reach this place. I absolutely got to the end of myself.

I had nothing left to give, and I was failing those I cared most for BIG TIME!

The things I would do in my own strength or through listening to conventional wisdom were pulling me back and forth, wreaking havoc and confusion on our home. I would try to do something only to see that I was making everything worse.

The result –  Satan would tear me apart through his accusations.

The Real Battle

Truly, we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but we do WAR against the powers of darkness; against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms (Ephesians 6:12).


We can not fight spiritual battles in our own strength or knowledge, but must cry out to God daily and ask his Holy Spirit to direct our steps.

We fight these battles on our knees. “Not by might nor by power, but by my Spirit,’ says the LORD Almighty.” (Zechariah 4:6)

The enemy of our soul (Satan) wants us to believe we cannot trust God. He wants us to believe we aren’t worthy, that God would answer the prayers of others but not ours, etc.

He wants to point out all of your mistakes of your past and cause you to feel unworthy to come to God, but all we have to do when Satan throws those accusations at us is HUMBLY come before the throne and ask God to forgive us our sins. Then we can put our petition before God.

As I was in prayer and praise before my Father last week, He gave me a Psalm. It literally flowed forth in the amount of time it takes to sing it. I pray it will comfort you and help you trust Him in a way perhaps that you have never been able to trust Him before.

As you surrender to Him, may your soul find rest and may the lies of the enemy be shattered before the might and power of His Spirit.